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frandroidWow. I feel so much better about school this year. My courses aren't intimidating me like my courses last year did. I think that my philosophy course last year destroyed my self-confidence, and it will be a while before I take one again, even though I know I will *have* to. My computer science course happens within a framework I'm very familiar with, my Evolution course looks really interesting and it's going to be all multiple choice questions, and the prof says he's going to test if we read the book, he's not going to trick us. My linguistics courses seems fun but I have no idea how hard it will be, and that's the same for my India course. But like, no terror. I really need this boost of confidence. I need to pass some courses with As. I actually did get one or two As last year (I need to see the prof for the second grade, since I got defered standing (yeah!! imagine. first year and I got a deferred course already.) but I should get an A, or a B at the very worst.), but I winghed that, I didn't really work for it. I need to get As I feel I deserve.
I'm on top of my reading, which is surprising. I've already had a few nights of very little sleep, trying to flush out the demons of procrastination... While this sounds bad, these nights usually happen when I'm in a rush at the end of the semester, super late on everything I have to hand in, and I feel failure about to roll all over me. Eventually I get a big jolt of energy, like NOW!! DO YOUR WORK!! YOU NEED TO SURVIVE!! and then frenetically get to work. It's already been a few days past most of the final paper deadlines when this happens though. This is like my entire cégep history, and last year. The fact that this is happening to me on my first week for an assignment that's worth 1% is good: if I can overcome these demons now, I should be set for the rest of the semester.
I'm on top of my reading, which is surprising. I've already had a few nights of very little sleep, trying to flush out the demons of procrastination... While this sounds bad, these nights usually happen when I'm in a rush at the end of the semester, super late on everything I have to hand in, and I feel failure about to roll all over me. Eventually I get a big jolt of energy, like NOW!! DO YOUR WORK!! YOU NEED TO SURVIVE!! and then frenetically get to work. It's already been a few days past most of the final paper deadlines when this happens though. This is like my entire cégep history, and last year. The fact that this is happening to me on my first week for an assignment that's worth 1% is good: if I can overcome these demons now, I should be set for the rest of the semester.
